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Why I didn’t talk about my abuse until now.

Posted on September 27, 2018 by Christielee

Trigger warning – rape mentioned* This is the hardest blog I ever have or will ever need to write but I can no longer remain silent. The first time I was sexually abused was by a family member and someone I loved and admired,…

Category: Health & Wellness, ParentingTags: #abusesurvivor, #children, #empoweringwomen, #ibelieveyou, #ifonly, #life, #mentalhealthawareness, #metoo, #mum, #mummyblogger, #mumthatsabadword, #parentingblog, #parentingkids, #raisingchildren, #rapeculture, #singlemum, #singleparent

She is just a little person and still unable to regulate her emotions, even as a big person I have days where I can’t seem to stop the tears flowing . This morning she told me she missed her daddy and dreamt of stars, it was daycare today but she didn’t want to go & asked to stay home with mumma but she went off happily enough & I thought she was ok but it was a hard day for her . She was crying when we picked her up cuz her friend took her doll and pushed her to the ground, she was so heartbroken that her sadness turned to anger & she lashed out at Layla-Malanna in the car. She kept crying & yelling until I pulled over & asked her if she needed some mumma hugs . She jumped into the front seat & we sat there hugging for 10 as she sobbed & told me all about her day asking me why she just couldn’t stop being sad . I hugged her, kissed her, rocked her & I listened to her and I mean really listened to her & what was going on in her beautiful little mind and I responded with understanding cuz it’s not just big people that have hard days . It’s not just big people that need to cry or be angry or eat a block of chocolate some days for no other reason than it feels right at the time. . It’s not just big people who have intense, unexpected feelings about what is happening in our lives leaving us feeling vulnerable and exposed . It’s not just big people who feel lonely and alone even when surrounded by people. . My baby girl suffers, she knows some days her hurt is unbearable and she gets scared & frustrated & sad, so so fucking sad 💔 . She may not understand why she has these emotions or how to control them just yet but I will always be here for her to give her all the kisses & cuddles she needs to start to feel ok . I will let her experience & really feel those feelings with every part of her & do the best I can to assure her that they are normal, especially for the trauma and heart break she has suffered in her very short life . I will make sure she never has a single reason to doubt me and the lengths I will go to for her and I will NEVER stop rocking her or wiping away her tears . Much Love and light Christie xx

I am an actual socially awkward fucking disaster usually but I totally stepped out of my comfort zone tonight lovers!! . I got myself dressed, I slipped my ugg boots on, because I’m classy like that, I drove to Camden and I walked in to a room packed full of women and a few men on my own and I didn’t have a panic attack or trip up the stairs on the way in or accidentally snart (sneeze fart) on the plastic chairs after being sick all week... . (Basically I managed to get through an entire hour without making a complete twat socket of myself or anyone else so fukn ay!) . I have been feeling like something is missing for a long time and I could not shake the feeling that I needed to be doing something more, something to really connect me to my community and help those who may be in a vulnerable position. . I want to fill the void with giving back to the community instead of filling it with ‘things... . So I attended the first steering committee meeting for the Camden Community Shelter for women and children experiencing homelessness in Camden-Wollondilly where I will be volunteering and hopefully will secure a position on the social media, fundraising, PR and Marketing committee! . I even met a beautiful Mum that’s a bad word follower there, how fucking insane is that?! . So many women and children face homelessness after leaving abusive relationships so this is such an important cause to be able to help bring attention to and start conversations about. . I got home and instead of celebrating with a wine, Tigah made me a mug cake 😍 https://www.healthymummy.com/recipe/chocolate-lava-microwave-cake/?lbwref=106 . . #mumthatsabadword . . . . . #camdennsw #womenscommunityshelters #homelessness #domesticviolenceawareness #volunteer #volunteering #community #fundraising #mugcake #choclavacake #rippedjeans #singlemumlife #singlemum #motherdaughter #anxiety #sociallyawkward #awkwardaf #socialmedia #jeans #vulnerable #womensrights #children #darkchocolate #motherhoodunplugged #sydneymums #camdenmums #macarthur

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Why I didn’t talk about my abuse until now.

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