Tag: #lonely
School holidays are over and the anxiety is high!
Posted on January 29, 2019 by Christielee
I have had such a headache all day and literally just threw up so violently it hurt. I want to blame the many, many choc chip cookies I consumed but to act like I don’t binge cookies on a regular basis and that could…
Category: ParentingTags: #anxiety, #children, #empoweringgirls, #girltalk, #lonely, #mentalhealthawareness, #motherhoodunplugged, #mum, #mumblogger, #mumlife, #mummyblog, #mummyblogger, #mumsblog, #mumthatsabadword, #parenting101, #parentingkids, #raisingchildren, #raisinggirls, #school, #singlemum, #singleparent, #tweens
A letter to my daddy, the brightest star in the sky. I love you too much.
Posted on December 17, 2018 by Christielee
The next morning mummy was still crying and she told me that my daddy was a star now and that I wouldn’t see him for Christmas unless I looked to the sky, she told me through her tears and her quaking voice that I would never see you again because you had to go away.
Motherhood can be so lonely.
Posted on November 20, 2018 by Christielee
Motherhood can get so fucking lonely! There, I said it! How often I get asked ‘but you have 4 kids, how can you feel lonely?! Whether I had 1, 4 or 45 kids the loneliness is not about being alone mums are never really…
It’s ok not to be ok.
Posted on September 17, 2018 by Christielee
For those of you who don’t know me and my story let me catch you up a little. I’m Christielee, A single mother of 4 girls from 4 – 14 (all born on 4’s eerily enough) and I am not always ok. I am…
Category: Health & Wellness, ParentingTags: #children, #lonely, #mentalhealth, #mentalhealthawareness, #mumlife, #mummyblog, #mummyblogger, #mums, #mumslife, #mumthatsabadword, #parentingblog, #parentingkids, #raisingchildren, #singlemum, #singleparent, #soleparent, #suicideawareness, #suicideprevention
Parenting Alone
Posted on August 20, 2018 by Christielee
I ummed and Ahhhed about posting this photo because it was such an emotional, exhausting moment between us that I truly wasn’t sure if I should share it but decided it needs to be spoken about. Last year on December 18th I received a…
Category: ParentingTags: #life, #lifestyle, #lonely, #love, #mentalhealthawareness, #mum, #mumlife, #mummyblog, #mummyblogger, #mums, #mumsblog, #mumthatsabadword, #parentingkids, #raisingchildren, #raisinggirls, #singlemum, #singleparent, #soleparent, #suicideawareness, #suicideprevention, #womensupportingwomen, Parenting
La Mia Famiglia
Not sure where Aiva-Leilani’s eyes are but I do love this photo 💖💖
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#mumthatsabadword .
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#family #lamiafamiglia #happy #smile #raisingqueens #tattooedmum #keepthemlittle #kidsofinstagram #girlscan #kids #mumswithcameras #motherhoodintheraw #motherhood #mytribe #theuniverseprovides #motherslove #bhfyp #daughters #mum #mumsofsydney #blogger #bloggerlife #mummyblogger #mumsofinsta #parenthoodunplugged #unitycircle1
Miss Amarlie Briallen and her favourite person in the world (besides me of course🤷♀️) her big brother Max.
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After their daddy died, Maxi’s mum Mase @gabriyel2012 and I wanted to make sure the two have a solid relationship for life.
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It has been easy because my ex husbands ex wife is possibly one of the best people I have ever met, he had impeccable taste clearly!
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These two together is just a beautiful thing to see, maxi is usually on all fours dressed as a unicorn with Amarlie riding on his back.
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He is her unicorn and he has absolutely no worries in letting hos little sister be his Princess commanding him where to go and how to be a good unicorn!
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They adore each other and they share something truly special just like me and his mumma 💖💙
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We have a beautiful extended family, tragedy brought us together but the strongest love keeps us together 💖
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#mumthatsabadword .
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#extendedfamily #brother #brothersisterlove #siblings #tattooedmum #keepthemlittle #suicideawareness #unicorn #southafrican #kids #kidsofinstagram #truelove #love #mumblogger #family #lafamiglia #mumslife #unitycircle1 #blogger #friends #happy #bhfyp #beautiful #happy #familytime #photooftheday
5 years ago today at 8.51am you came into our world and changed all of our lives for the better, my beautiful little Miss Amarlie Briallen.
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You were sent to us by the universe because she knew we needed you, she knew that without you we would remain broken with the last piece forever missing.
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You are the last piece and no matter how many cracks we had before and how many new ones that will undoubtedly appear along the way, we are complete now that we have you my little frenchie.
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Thank you for healing my broken heart so many times just by touching my face gently and reassuring me we will be ok.
Thank you for teaching me patience, a different way to parent and how to be a better mummy.
Thank you for being so unconditionally loving to everyone you meet.
Thank you for still laying your tired little head on my chest to rest.
Thank you for being so sassy and full of attitude, unafraid to be exactly who you are.
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Thank you for choosing us and allowing us to be your earthly guides 💖💖
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It is my life’s biggest accomplishment and greatest honour to be yours and your sisters mumma bear.
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Happy 5th journey around the sun my woodgy woodgy woo woo, I love you with my everything 💕💖
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#mumthatsabadword
#ad - I’m 37 in a few days and I have never been and will NEVER be as cool or as sassy as Miss Amarlie Briallen is at 4!
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A’s gorgeous little faux fur Jacket is from @bestandless and it is so warm and so affordable and it HAS EARS!!!! , Definitely go check out their winter range!!! .
#mumthatsabadword #bestandless .
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#kidsclothes #mummydaughterdate #kidsjacket #hoodies #kidsfashion #shessocool #toddlersarefun #bestandlesskids #kidsstyle #mumblogger #mumsofsydney #unitycircle1 #cutemixedkids #mixedracekids #inclusionmatters #hightops #kidsjeggings #keepthemlittle #kidsofinstagram #girlscan #kids #kidsofinstagram #mummy #fashionforkids #bestandlessstyle #fauxfur
I really wanted boys.
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With each pregnancy I hoped that I would catch a glimpse of a little penis flapping around in the amniotic fluid at each ultrasound because I was terrified that I’d raise my girls to be just like me. .
I was terrified of raising mini me’s because I was never one of the cool kids, I was the foul mouthed, cocky teen with too much to say and not enough to back it up with...
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I lacked finesse and never found it not that I was ever actively looking🤷♀️
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My mouth ran much faster than what my mind did and it only caught up once I experienced verbal diarrhoea and there was no way of slurping that shit back up...
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I was petrified that they’d be the type of girls that when we left their friends homes after a play date the secret squirrel parents would call upon the mummy mafia to ban together to oust my crotch monkeys from the ever elusive ‘inner circle’ I worked so hard to infiltrate. .
Years of meticulous planning dollar coin donation school events and mastering the art of under exaggerating the amount of sugar in the cupcakes for the Mother’s Day stalls would be wasted and all for nothing!! .
Today as we sat in the car waiting for the girls to finish school I was loudly singing to the radio and Amarlie was playing with her dolls and I heard her let one rip over the music, I looked in the rear view mirror and Miss A was laughing to herself and made one doll say to the other ‘I just fanny farted’ .
And it was at that exact moment I realised how happy I am that I had all girls and that they all have some parts of me, they have the better parts of me like my resilience, my empathy, my creative mind, my ability to forgive and to love unconditionally and my ability to clear a room with a single ass blast....
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My little Queen La-Queefer is exactly like me and I couldn’t be any fucking prouder!
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#mumthatsabadword #mumlifethelabel
Mama and mama’s mini tees from @mumlifethelabel
I considered not sharing this photo on here, I get so caught up on what Instagram mums are supposed to look like that sharing a photo like this becomes an argument with inner self.
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No make up, no filters, acne scarred skin, hair not done, fluff all over my clothes, no tan and a rolly tummy.....it’s all laid bare and just waiting to be judged.
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There are things about me that I could pick apart, I could focus all of my energy on what needs to be changed and what I need to fix but then I’d miss the absolute beauty of this image.
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There is something so sobering knowing that My baby doesn’t care that my I don’t have my face made up or that I have acne scars, she doesn’t notice that my hair is a mess or the white fluff on my black hoodie.
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My baby doesn’t give a shit if I am pasty white or that my belly has stretch marks, a snail trail, a c-section scar and some flabby rolls, she is absolutely oblivious to it all.
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All my baby knows is how she feels when she lays her head on my soft fleshy belly and how she feels loved and safe and protected.
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She plays with my stomach and never does she look disgusted or like she is trying to figure out how to make the bloat disappear to reveal an amazing flat washboard stomach, she just holds it and squishes it into a doughnut and giggles her little head off about mummy’s ‘yummy tummy’ 🍩 .
I want my girls to love and truly appreciate their bodies, I want them to understand that our perceived flaws are actually what make us unique and beautiful.
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What I say about me in front of them will become their inner voice, the cycle of self doubt and lacking confidence will continue.
.
I would like to look like an Instagram mum.
I’d like to have beautiful clear skin.
I’d really like to have a washboard belly.
But I really LOVE that my baby will still come and rest her head on my yummy doughnut tummy.
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So I am learning to not pick myself apart and to post the pics and of course I’m going to continue to enjoy every single squishy cuddle I can get for as long as she will give them.
La Mia Famiglia
Not sure where Aiva-Leilani’s eyes are but I do love this photo 💖💖
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#mumthatsabadword .
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.
.
.
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#family #lamiafamiglia #happy #smile #raisingqueens #tattooedmum #keepthemlittle #kidsofinstagram #girlscan #kids #mumswithcameras #motherhoodintheraw #motherhood #mytribe #theuniverseprovides #motherslove #bhfyp #daughters #mum #mumsofsydney #blogger #bloggerlife #mummyblogger #mumsofinsta #parenthoodunplugged #unitycircle1
Miss Amarlie Briallen and her favourite person in the world (besides me of course🤷♀️) her big brother Max.
.
After their daddy died, Maxi’s mum Mase @gabriyel2012 and I wanted to make sure the two have a solid relationship for life.
.
It has been easy because my ex husbands ex wife is possibly one of the best people I have ever met, he had impeccable taste clearly!
.
These two together is just a beautiful thing to see, maxi is usually on all fours dressed as a unicorn with Amarlie riding on his back.
.
He is her unicorn and he has absolutely no worries in letting hos little sister be his Princess commanding him where to go and how to be a good unicorn!
.
They adore each other and they share something truly special just like me and his mumma 💖💙
.
We have a beautiful extended family, tragedy brought us together but the strongest love keeps us together 💖
.
#mumthatsabadword .
.
.
.
.
.
.
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#extendedfamily #brother #brothersisterlove #siblings #tattooedmum #keepthemlittle #suicideawareness #unicorn #southafrican #kids #kidsofinstagram #truelove #love #mumblogger #family #lafamiglia #mumslife #unitycircle1 #blogger #friends #happy #bhfyp #beautiful #happy #familytime #photooftheday
5 years ago today at 8.51am you came into our world and changed all of our lives for the better, my beautiful little Miss Amarlie Briallen.
.
You were sent to us by the universe because she knew we needed you, she knew that without you we would remain broken with the last piece forever missing.
.
You are the last piece and no matter how many cracks we had before and how many new ones that will undoubtedly appear along the way, we are complete now that we have you my little frenchie.
.
Thank you for healing my broken heart so many times just by touching my face gently and reassuring me we will be ok.
Thank you for teaching me patience, a different way to parent and how to be a better mummy.
Thank you for being so unconditionally loving to everyone you meet.
Thank you for still laying your tired little head on my chest to rest.
Thank you for being so sassy and full of attitude, unafraid to be exactly who you are.
.
Thank you for choosing us and allowing us to be your earthly guides 💖💖
.
It is my life’s biggest accomplishment and greatest honour to be yours and your sisters mumma bear.
.
Happy 5th journey around the sun my woodgy woodgy woo woo, I love you with my everything 💕💖
.
#mumthatsabadword
#ad - I’m 37 in a few days and I have never been and will NEVER be as cool or as sassy as Miss Amarlie Briallen is at 4!
-
A’s gorgeous little faux fur Jacket is from @bestandless and it is so warm and so affordable and it HAS EARS!!!! , Definitely go check out their winter range!!! .
#mumthatsabadword #bestandless .
.
.
.
.
.
.
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#kidsclothes #mummydaughterdate #kidsjacket #hoodies #kidsfashion #shessocool #toddlersarefun #bestandlesskids #kidsstyle #mumblogger #mumsofsydney #unitycircle1 #cutemixedkids #mixedracekids #inclusionmatters #hightops #kidsjeggings #keepthemlittle #kidsofinstagram #girlscan #kids #kidsofinstagram #mummy #fashionforkids #bestandlessstyle #fauxfur
I really wanted boys.
.
With each pregnancy I hoped that I would catch a glimpse of a little penis flapping around in the amniotic fluid at each ultrasound because I was terrified that I’d raise my girls to be just like me. .
I was terrified of raising mini me’s because I was never one of the cool kids, I was the foul mouthed, cocky teen with too much to say and not enough to back it up with...
.
I lacked finesse and never found it not that I was ever actively looking🤷♀️
.
My mouth ran much faster than what my mind did and it only caught up once I experienced verbal diarrhoea and there was no way of slurping that shit back up...
.
I was petrified that they’d be the type of girls that when we left their friends homes after a play date the secret squirrel parents would call upon the mummy mafia to ban together to oust my crotch monkeys from the ever elusive ‘inner circle’ I worked so hard to infiltrate. .
Years of meticulous planning dollar coin donation school events and mastering the art of under exaggerating the amount of sugar in the cupcakes for the Mother’s Day stalls would be wasted and all for nothing!! .
Today as we sat in the car waiting for the girls to finish school I was loudly singing to the radio and Amarlie was playing with her dolls and I heard her let one rip over the music, I looked in the rear view mirror and Miss A was laughing to herself and made one doll say to the other ‘I just fanny farted’ .
And it was at that exact moment I realised how happy I am that I had all girls and that they all have some parts of me, they have the better parts of me like my resilience, my empathy, my creative mind, my ability to forgive and to love unconditionally and my ability to clear a room with a single ass blast....
.
My little Queen La-Queefer is exactly like me and I couldn’t be any fucking prouder!
.
#mumthatsabadword #mumlifethelabel
Mama and mama’s mini tees from @mumlifethelabel
I considered not sharing this photo on here, I get so caught up on what Instagram mums are supposed to look like that sharing a photo like this becomes an argument with inner self.
.
No make up, no filters, acne scarred skin, hair not done, fluff all over my clothes, no tan and a rolly tummy.....it’s all laid bare and just waiting to be judged.
.
There are things about me that I could pick apart, I could focus all of my energy on what needs to be changed and what I need to fix but then I’d miss the absolute beauty of this image.
.
There is something so sobering knowing that My baby doesn’t care that my I don’t have my face made up or that I have acne scars, she doesn’t notice that my hair is a mess or the white fluff on my black hoodie.
.
My baby doesn’t give a shit if I am pasty white or that my belly has stretch marks, a snail trail, a c-section scar and some flabby rolls, she is absolutely oblivious to it all.
.
All my baby knows is how she feels when she lays her head on my soft fleshy belly and how she feels loved and safe and protected.
.
She plays with my stomach and never does she look disgusted or like she is trying to figure out how to make the bloat disappear to reveal an amazing flat washboard stomach, she just holds it and squishes it into a doughnut and giggles her little head off about mummy’s ‘yummy tummy’ 🍩 .
I want my girls to love and truly appreciate their bodies, I want them to understand that our perceived flaws are actually what make us unique and beautiful.
.
What I say about me in front of them will become their inner voice, the cycle of self doubt and lacking confidence will continue.
.
I would like to look like an Instagram mum.
I’d like to have beautiful clear skin.
I’d really like to have a washboard belly.
But I really LOVE that my baby will still come and rest her head on my yummy doughnut tummy.
.
So I am learning to not pick myself apart and to post the pics and of course I’m going to continue to enjoy every single squishy cuddle I can get for as long as she will give them.
