Tag: #suicide
My daughter lost her daddy to suicide, she doesn’t understand yet.
Posted on March 24, 2019 by Christielee
She lost her daddy to suicide a year ago now and it hasn’t gotten easier and it isn’t getting better. She doesn’t understand yet. She has been having a lot of moments lately, she has been crying over the smallest of things, slamming doors…
An open letter to my soul mate, happy heavenly birthday Adam Fabulous…
Posted on February 14, 2019 by Christielee
Trigger warning, suicide mentioned* I met you at 18, you were dating my roommate and I asked you why you were dating a girl?! You responded that you liked her and I laughed and told you I was pretty sure you didn’t like ANY…
A letter to my daddy, the brightest star in the sky. I love you too much.
Posted on December 17, 2018 by Christielee
The next morning mummy was still crying and she told me that my daddy was a star now and that I wouldn’t see him for Christmas unless I looked to the sky, she told me through her tears and her quaking voice that I would never see you again because you had to go away.
Too freaking beautiful not to share!
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Tigah Rosie @sour_oatmeal15
and I are doing a 1000 smoothie challenge and this is #9 the healthy mummy Nutty Caramello smoothie (with choc soy milk) and some salted caramel dark choc 😍
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#tigahs1000smoothies #mumthatsabadword .
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#healthymummy #healthymummysmoothie #healthymummyconsultant #healthandwellness #healthandwellnessjourney #teenchef #teenartist #foodart #photography #smoothie #smoothierecipes #saltedcaramel #caramello #breakfast #healthybreakfastideas #healthyliving #mealreplacement #notashake #eatwellbewell #blogger #camdennsw #macarthur #mumsofsydney #mumblogger #healthysnack #wellnessjourney
Her hair is getting so long now!
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Miss Amarlies hair looks short it’s so curly but it’s really long and so beautiful 😍 .
Im currently teaching myself how to braid because I honestly suck at doing anything other than messy mum buns and using a straightener! 🤷♀️😂
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Now if she’d just sit still..... .
Do you have hair skills or are you hopeless like me? .
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#mumthatsabadword .
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#curlyhair #curlyhairstyles #naturalhair #mumblogger #southafrican #southafricanprincess #kidshairstyles #hair #mixedrace #mixedracekids #sheisperfect #motherhoodunplugged #motherhoodrising #toddlersofinstagram #mybabygirl #mumswithcameras #hairofinstagram #bhfyp #hairgoals #parenting #beauty #motherhoodintheraw #kidsofinstagram #toddlerfashion #mum #mumsofsydney #hairdid #beautiful
She is just a little person and still unable to regulate her emotions, even as a big person I have days where I can’t seem to stop the tears flowing
.
This morning she told me she missed her daddy and dreamt of stars, it was daycare today but she didn’t want to go & asked to stay home with mumma but she went off happily enough & I thought she was ok but it was a hard day for her
.
She was crying when we picked her up cuz her friend took her doll and pushed her to the ground, she was so heartbroken that her sadness turned to anger & she lashed out at Layla-Malanna in the car. She kept crying & yelling until I pulled over & asked her if she needed some mumma hugs
.
She jumped into the front seat & we sat there hugging for 10 as she sobbed & told me all about her day asking me why she just couldn’t stop being sad
.
I hugged her, kissed her, rocked her & I listened to her and I mean really listened to her & what was going on in her beautiful little mind and I responded with understanding cuz it’s not just big people that have hard days
.
It’s not just big people that need to cry or be angry or eat a block of chocolate some days for no other reason than it feels right at the time.
.
It’s not just big people who have intense, unexpected feelings about what is happening in our lives leaving us feeling vulnerable and exposed
.
It’s not just big people who feel lonely and alone even when surrounded by people.
.
My baby girl suffers, she knows some days her hurt is unbearable and she gets scared & frustrated & sad, so so fucking sad 💔
.
She may not understand why she has these emotions or how to control them just yet but I will always be here for her to give her all the kisses & cuddles she needs to start to feel ok
.
I will let her experience & really feel those feelings with every part of her & do the best I can to assure her that they are normal, especially for the trauma and heart break she has suffered in her very short life
.
I will make sure she never has a single reason to doubt me and the lengths I will go to for her and I will NEVER stop rocking her or wiping away her tears
.
Much Love and light
Christie xx
People without children: what’s it like being a parent?
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.
What Every parent everywhere wants to say: Prepare to make snacks, a lot of snacks!
Be sure to make 8 different kinds of snacks because no matter what you make and how much your child LOVED those snacks yesterday, they’re going to spit them out and tell you how disgusting they are today then when you don’t offer them tomorrow that same child is going to go into meltdown mode because you didn’t make their favourite snack!
.
For the love of all things tasty, just make ALL the SNACKS!!!
.
What parents everywhere actually say: I wouldn’t change it for the world.....
.
.
Lucky the amazing people @chobaniau Know just how snacky and hangry kids can get and were kind enough to send us a few boxes of the new #chobanigimmies In ALL the flavours to keep the melt downs at bay!
.
.
Miss Amarlie adores the choc chunk cookie dunk and every time I look at her she has another one in her hand, even shared some with her dress 🙄😂
.
.
The girls love the Airy fairy bread and I love all of them!
.
Have you tried them, what’s your fave flavour?
.
.
#mumthatsabadword .
.
.
.
#gifted #chobani #gimmies #healthysnacks #greekyoghurt #chobaniyogurt #chocchunk #parenting #snacks #snacksforkids #healthy #mumsofsydney #mumblogger #eat #toddler #toddlersofinstagram #mums #mummy #eatwell #yoghurts #mumswithcameras #collab #motherhood #motherhoodunplugged #parenthoodunlocked #snacksfortoddlers #hangry
I don’t know who needs to read this tonight but having a mental health illness does NOT make you a shit mum!
.
Having a condition that can render you feeling hopeless and is out of your control is NOT your fault.
.
Needing to call a friend or family member to talk to is NOT something to feel ashamed of.
.
Asking for help is NOT a sign of weakness.
.
Feeling suicidal and talking about it is NOT attention seeking.
.
Attempting suicide is NOT selfish.
.
Cutting people off who are negatively affecting you and your mental health is NOT unreasonable.
.
Needing time to self care and put you and your mental health first is NOT self centred.
.
Your Mental health does NOT make you unlovable or incapable of loving.
.
Feeling defeated and exhausted does NOT make you a failure.
.
Asking for those around you to be empathetic to your situation and offer support instead of judgement is NOT fucking crazy!
.
You are human
You are important
You are a survivor
You are appreciated
.
You are a fucking warrior, I see you, I am you.
.
Love you all, Christie xx
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#mumthatsabadword .
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.
#mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthawarenessmonth #depression #mentalillness #bipolar #bpd #recovery #parenting #suicideawareness #suicideprevention #instatime #selfcare #mindfulness #wellbeing #singlemumlife #mum #bhfyp #family #mind #notafailure #warriors #survivor #notavictim #lovable #mumsofsydney #mumblogger #mentalhealthblogger
I am an actual socially awkward fucking disaster usually but I totally stepped out of my comfort zone tonight lovers!! .
I got myself dressed, I slipped my ugg boots on, because I’m classy like that, I drove to Camden and I walked in to a room packed full of women and a few men on my own and I didn’t have a panic attack or trip up the stairs on the way in or accidentally snart (sneeze fart) on the plastic chairs after being sick all week...
.
(Basically I managed to get through an entire hour without making a complete twat socket of myself or anyone else so fukn ay!)
.
I have been feeling like something is missing for a long time and I could not shake the feeling that I needed to be doing something more, something to really connect me to my community and help those who may be in a vulnerable position. .
I want to fill the void with giving back to the community instead of filling it with ‘things...
.
So I attended the first steering committee meeting for the Camden Community Shelter for women and children experiencing homelessness in Camden-Wollondilly where I will be volunteering and hopefully will secure a position on the social media, fundraising, PR and Marketing committee!
.
I even met a beautiful Mum that’s a bad word follower there, how fucking insane is that?!
.
So many women and children face homelessness after leaving abusive relationships so this is such an important cause to be able to help bring attention to and start conversations about.
.
I got home and instead of celebrating with a wine, Tigah made me a mug cake 😍 https://www.healthymummy.com/recipe/chocolate-lava-microwave-cake/?lbwref=106 .
.
#mumthatsabadword .
.
.
.
.
#camdennsw #womenscommunityshelters #homelessness #domesticviolenceawareness #volunteer #volunteering #community #fundraising #mugcake #choclavacake #rippedjeans #singlemumlife #singlemum #motherdaughter #anxiety #sociallyawkward #awkwardaf #socialmedia #jeans #vulnerable #womensrights #children #darkchocolate #motherhoodunplugged #sydneymums #camdenmums #macarthur
Too freaking beautiful not to share!
.
Tigah Rosie @sour_oatmeal15
and I are doing a 1000 smoothie challenge and this is #9 the healthy mummy Nutty Caramello smoothie (with choc soy milk) and some salted caramel dark choc 😍
.
#tigahs1000smoothies #mumthatsabadword .
.
.
.
.
.
.
#healthymummy #healthymummysmoothie #healthymummyconsultant #healthandwellness #healthandwellnessjourney #teenchef #teenartist #foodart #photography #smoothie #smoothierecipes #saltedcaramel #caramello #breakfast #healthybreakfastideas #healthyliving #mealreplacement #notashake #eatwellbewell #blogger #camdennsw #macarthur #mumsofsydney #mumblogger #healthysnack #wellnessjourney
Her hair is getting so long now!
.
Miss Amarlies hair looks short it’s so curly but it’s really long and so beautiful 😍 .
Im currently teaching myself how to braid because I honestly suck at doing anything other than messy mum buns and using a straightener! 🤷♀️😂
.
Now if she’d just sit still..... .
Do you have hair skills or are you hopeless like me? .
.
#mumthatsabadword .
.
.
.
.
.
#curlyhair #curlyhairstyles #naturalhair #mumblogger #southafrican #southafricanprincess #kidshairstyles #hair #mixedrace #mixedracekids #sheisperfect #motherhoodunplugged #motherhoodrising #toddlersofinstagram #mybabygirl #mumswithcameras #hairofinstagram #bhfyp #hairgoals #parenting #beauty #motherhoodintheraw #kidsofinstagram #toddlerfashion #mum #mumsofsydney #hairdid #beautiful
She is just a little person and still unable to regulate her emotions, even as a big person I have days where I can’t seem to stop the tears flowing
.
This morning she told me she missed her daddy and dreamt of stars, it was daycare today but she didn’t want to go & asked to stay home with mumma but she went off happily enough & I thought she was ok but it was a hard day for her
.
She was crying when we picked her up cuz her friend took her doll and pushed her to the ground, she was so heartbroken that her sadness turned to anger & she lashed out at Layla-Malanna in the car. She kept crying & yelling until I pulled over & asked her if she needed some mumma hugs
.
She jumped into the front seat & we sat there hugging for 10 as she sobbed & told me all about her day asking me why she just couldn’t stop being sad
.
I hugged her, kissed her, rocked her & I listened to her and I mean really listened to her & what was going on in her beautiful little mind and I responded with understanding cuz it’s not just big people that have hard days
.
It’s not just big people that need to cry or be angry or eat a block of chocolate some days for no other reason than it feels right at the time.
.
It’s not just big people who have intense, unexpected feelings about what is happening in our lives leaving us feeling vulnerable and exposed
.
It’s not just big people who feel lonely and alone even when surrounded by people.
.
My baby girl suffers, she knows some days her hurt is unbearable and she gets scared & frustrated & sad, so so fucking sad 💔
.
She may not understand why she has these emotions or how to control them just yet but I will always be here for her to give her all the kisses & cuddles she needs to start to feel ok
.
I will let her experience & really feel those feelings with every part of her & do the best I can to assure her that they are normal, especially for the trauma and heart break she has suffered in her very short life
.
I will make sure she never has a single reason to doubt me and the lengths I will go to for her and I will NEVER stop rocking her or wiping away her tears
.
Much Love and light
Christie xx
People without children: what’s it like being a parent?
.
.
What Every parent everywhere wants to say: Prepare to make snacks, a lot of snacks!
Be sure to make 8 different kinds of snacks because no matter what you make and how much your child LOVED those snacks yesterday, they’re going to spit them out and tell you how disgusting they are today then when you don’t offer them tomorrow that same child is going to go into meltdown mode because you didn’t make their favourite snack!
.
For the love of all things tasty, just make ALL the SNACKS!!!
.
What parents everywhere actually say: I wouldn’t change it for the world.....
.
.
Lucky the amazing people @chobaniau Know just how snacky and hangry kids can get and were kind enough to send us a few boxes of the new #chobanigimmies In ALL the flavours to keep the melt downs at bay!
.
.
Miss Amarlie adores the choc chunk cookie dunk and every time I look at her she has another one in her hand, even shared some with her dress 🙄😂
.
.
The girls love the Airy fairy bread and I love all of them!
.
Have you tried them, what’s your fave flavour?
.
.
#mumthatsabadword .
.
.
.
#gifted #chobani #gimmies #healthysnacks #greekyoghurt #chobaniyogurt #chocchunk #parenting #snacks #snacksforkids #healthy #mumsofsydney #mumblogger #eat #toddler #toddlersofinstagram #mums #mummy #eatwell #yoghurts #mumswithcameras #collab #motherhood #motherhoodunplugged #parenthoodunlocked #snacksfortoddlers #hangry
I don’t know who needs to read this tonight but having a mental health illness does NOT make you a shit mum!
.
Having a condition that can render you feeling hopeless and is out of your control is NOT your fault.
.
Needing to call a friend or family member to talk to is NOT something to feel ashamed of.
.
Asking for help is NOT a sign of weakness.
.
Feeling suicidal and talking about it is NOT attention seeking.
.
Attempting suicide is NOT selfish.
.
Cutting people off who are negatively affecting you and your mental health is NOT unreasonable.
.
Needing time to self care and put you and your mental health first is NOT self centred.
.
Your Mental health does NOT make you unlovable or incapable of loving.
.
Feeling defeated and exhausted does NOT make you a failure.
.
Asking for those around you to be empathetic to your situation and offer support instead of judgement is NOT fucking crazy!
.
You are human
You are important
You are a survivor
You are appreciated
.
You are a fucking warrior, I see you, I am you.
.
Love you all, Christie xx
.
.
#mumthatsabadword .
.
.
#mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthawarenessmonth #depression #mentalillness #bipolar #bpd #recovery #parenting #suicideawareness #suicideprevention #instatime #selfcare #mindfulness #wellbeing #singlemumlife #mum #bhfyp #family #mind #notafailure #warriors #survivor #notavictim #lovable #mumsofsydney #mumblogger #mentalhealthblogger
I am an actual socially awkward fucking disaster usually but I totally stepped out of my comfort zone tonight lovers!! .
I got myself dressed, I slipped my ugg boots on, because I’m classy like that, I drove to Camden and I walked in to a room packed full of women and a few men on my own and I didn’t have a panic attack or trip up the stairs on the way in or accidentally snart (sneeze fart) on the plastic chairs after being sick all week...
.
(Basically I managed to get through an entire hour without making a complete twat socket of myself or anyone else so fukn ay!)
.
I have been feeling like something is missing for a long time and I could not shake the feeling that I needed to be doing something more, something to really connect me to my community and help those who may be in a vulnerable position. .
I want to fill the void with giving back to the community instead of filling it with ‘things...
.
So I attended the first steering committee meeting for the Camden Community Shelter for women and children experiencing homelessness in Camden-Wollondilly where I will be volunteering and hopefully will secure a position on the social media, fundraising, PR and Marketing committee!
.
I even met a beautiful Mum that’s a bad word follower there, how fucking insane is that?!
.
So many women and children face homelessness after leaving abusive relationships so this is such an important cause to be able to help bring attention to and start conversations about.
.
I got home and instead of celebrating with a wine, Tigah made me a mug cake 😍 https://www.healthymummy.com/recipe/chocolate-lava-microwave-cake/?lbwref=106 .
.
#mumthatsabadword .
.
.
.
.
#camdennsw #womenscommunityshelters #homelessness #domesticviolenceawareness #volunteer #volunteering #community #fundraising #mugcake #choclavacake #rippedjeans #singlemumlife #singlemum #motherdaughter #anxiety #sociallyawkward #awkwardaf #socialmedia #jeans #vulnerable #womensrights #children #darkchocolate #motherhoodunplugged #sydneymums #camdenmums #macarthur
